Christa Leis and Bruce Ellis
Even though I can't see the sun through these clouds
I know it still shines
Even though I can't feel Your love through this pain
I know You're alive
Even though I can't see the way up ahead
I know that You lead
Even though I can't feel Your presence now
I know I believe
Even though I can't understand why this storm still blows
Even though I can't hear Your voice...
I love Your rain
Matthew 16 (The Message Bible)
"...Anyone who intends to come with me has to let me lead. You're not in the driver's seat; I am. Don't run from suffering; embrace it. Follow me and I'll show you how..."I definitely feel as though I've been sitting out a storm for a long time now. We started this journey in March 2005. It's been a while and I'm not one who is easily given over to patience! :) The very first time I flew in an airplane, we were riding high above the clouds and the sun was shining. But as we made our descent, the clouds got darker and darker. On the ground, the sun was nowhere to be found and it was raining cats and dogs. Yet because I had seen it first-hand, I knew that the sun was still shining. We just couldn't see it.
This song reminded me that though my heart breaks terribly right now for Yosef and Mihret, 10,000 miles away from my embrace, God is still here. More and more, I struggle to see the sun through this storm, but that doesn't negate the fact that it is still shining. My inability to see what God is doing doesn't negate the fact that He is doing much. And we're not called to run from suffering. We're called to embrace it. That's what He did for us. He embraced suffering so that we might realize His great love for us. How can I do any less for my children? How can I do any less for God? I don't always know how to embrace suffering, but I do believe that He's faithful and that's enough. I don't care for this storm. But I do love the rain.